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How I found Love Again…(Day 29 – FINAL) What Is Love? Challenge

1 corinthians 13

So we’ve come to the end of the “What Is Love?” Challenge, Day 29…it’s been a beautiful and wonderful journey, digging deeper into what God says about Love.

I’m going to be a bit transparent today, before starting this challenge I was going though a pretty rough time. I was at the darkest and lowest I had ever been… going through a lot of challenges and deep issues…and I was questioning a lot of what I knew concerning Life and Love…

I had taken a break from my blog, YT channel and Social Media in general and I didn’t think I would ever come back…

A few months before starting this challenge, I had given my life to Jesus… and as I prayed and cried to God for answers…I felt the urge to start this challenge and share it with all of you…

I started this challenge on October 2016 and I’m finally completing it a year later…a lot of things have changed since then…my faith in God has been strengthened…I have seen and tasted the LOVE of God personally, and I know he is REAL, he EXISTS and most importantly, I have personally experienced the POWER and touch of his LOVE in my life…I now know that nothing in this world can separate me from his LOVE and I know that no matter what I go through in this life, he is always there with me…I have found my one true LOVE

1 Corinthians 13:8-13(ESV)

Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away. 11 When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways. 12 For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.

13 So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.

Today, I just wanted to encourage you by sharing a part of my story and my testimony…

I know most of you may have found me through my videos and blog posts concerning the MHM…and I still receive a lot of questions and inquiries specifically asking if I’m still doing the regimen and for me to give updates e.t.c

Well back in 2015, I started experiencing problems in my marriage. I’d been with this man for 14 years and we had been married for 3 years, our sons were 3 and 6 at the time.

It was during the time MHM was really popular and I just couldn’t handle the demands of keeping up with the content, let alone doing my own hair in the midst of all the problems I was facing…well towards the end of the year, we came to the conclusion that our marriage wasn’t going to work out.

And like most women, when we go through life altering circumstances we cut our hair…so that’s what I did, I big chopped and decided to change my whole look completely…I let my hair and the old me go…I wanted a fresh new start…

When something like that happens, it does take a lot out of you…even though I had known months in advance that the marriage was going to end…and actually, things had been bad for a while and we were just hanging on by the thread…but actually going through the transition was really tough…

I had so many things I had to worry about….I was overwhelmed, heartbroken and I felt like I had lost everything, because all my dreams and hopes were shattered…

Hopes and dreams for myself and most of all the hopes and dreams for my children…

As children, we all dream about eventually having a family but no one ever dreams that their family will be torn apart or broken, no one dreams about becoming a single mother…these things are not really part of our plans until they become our reality…

If you or someone you know are going through a separation or divorce, just know it is a traumatic experience that needs healing…not many people acknowledge this and you’re sometimes just expected to pick up the pieces of your life and move on…but that’s not the reality…I recommend that you watch this video by Dr Miles Munroe on How to Live after Separation and Divorce…a must watch for anyone single, married, separated or divorced.

Other challenges I faced, was the fact that one of my son’s had just been diagnosed with Autism and ADHD. And as some of you know, I live in Sweden…so I was essentially in a foreign country, alone, facing all these challenges and just trying to get through each day, healing my own emotional wounds, while raising my kids and trying to find better opportunities for us….

I had hit rock bottom and lost EVERYTHING and I had to start rebuilding my life from scratch, zero, nada…

I went through a lot of emotional, mental and financial challenges….I even fell into depression because I didn’t see how I could overcome all the challenges I was facing…But GOD!!!

Through it all God had been pursuing me, I remember when I and my EX were going through the break up he asked me…”So what are you going to do now?”…and I said, “I’m going to find God”…I didn’t even know what that meant at the time…but I certainly found him…

During the summer of 2016, I surrendered my life to God and said, Lord, I can’t do this on my own, so I want you take control…

Well, God took control alright, but he didn’t wave his magic wand and make everything PERFECT again, but he started healing me slowly…renewing my mind and showing me his LOVE…

I still had a lot of challenges, but I had his LOVE, JOY, PEACE surpassing all understanding and the strength to face all the challenges I was facing…

I came to understand that I had put my faith, hope, trust, love and fear in a man who was flawed and human, instead of relinquishing control in God…God was never a foundation of our marriage and it wasn’t pleasing or glorifying to him…

Well today, I thank God because he is a God of second chances…I survived one of the biggest blows in my life, my children are happy and healthy. My son who was diagnosed with Autism is doing pretty good compared to how he was a few years back…which is a miracle in itself…and I see God continuing to work on him each day…

Sometimes God’s solutions take time, he doesn’t give us quick fixes to our problems or grant us the requests for our prayers immediately….

but he wants you to go through a process in the wilderness, desert, valley…where you will learn to lean and trust him completely…and by the time God is done with you, you become a force to be reckoned with…because you will know God personally, you will have such an intimate relationship with him and your faith will not waver…

I don’t have everything I want, but I have God and he is enough for me. I know he knows exactly what I and my children need and he gives abundantly according to his will…

God is opening new doors and opportunities for me even as I speak/write this, surpassing what I could even imagine or could of asked him for…

He has worked miracles and I have found favor in places I never could on my own…there’s no other explanation but God…

when you see my posts online and see how passionate I am for God, it’s not because I’m righteous, or perfect or got it all together…

but it’s because my God rescued me, forgave me, healed me, provided for me, loved me and my children, he was there…when nobody else was…

Thank God we do not look like what we went through…because Lord knows I’ve been through it…and when people hear bits and pieces of my story they always say, “you’re sooo strong!!!”

well I just want to say, I’m just a regular person, there’s nothing special about me, I’m not any stronger or better than anyone else….but I know a big God, who created this universe and that’s where my strength and joy comes from…and I thank him every single day for what he has done in my life and my children’s lives…and what he is yet to do…

I know this was a long post, but I just wanted to share, so that my pain, my experiences, may not be in vain, but that they may encourage someone else…

Whatever you may be going through today, just know God loves you so much, you have no idea!!! and he wants you back…there’s nothing too hard for him…give your life to him and you’ll never regret it…EVER!!!

…and this is the story of how, I found LOVE again…

Love always,

XOXO,

Dee

 



Love binds everything together…(Day 23) What Is Love? Challenge

love binds

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Unity cannot exist where there is no LOVE, no matter how different we are, no matter what our background is, what life experiences we’ve gone through, where we come from, the color of our skin or how much money or success we have, there is only one thing that can unite us all and that is LOVE. At the end of the day we all seek LOVE, we seek to LOVE and to be LOVED and this is evident in our pursuits of the things of this world…the underlying need that we’re really trying to fulfill is the need for LOVE

Today’s scriptures, (Day 23) of the What Is Love? challenge, tell us once again how to live as followers of christ, but most importantly we’re told we should “put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony”

Colossians 3:8-15 (ESV)

But now you must put them all away: anger, wrath, malice, slander, and obscene talk from your mouth. Do not lie to one another, seeing that you have put off the old self with its practices 10 and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge after the image of its creator. 11 Here there is not Greek and Jew, circumcised and uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave, free; but Christ is all, and in all.

12 Put on then, as God’s chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience, 13 bearing with one another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other; as the Lord has forgiven you, so you also must forgive.14 And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony. 15 And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful.

Most times this world will try to blur out, what is right and what is wrong. Because of this, we’re led to believe that we lead pretty Ok lives. The media loves to sensationalize things and highlight the most dramatic things that take place in the world. Of course they do this because that’s how they attract viewership and ratings. However, you can not base your life according to what you see in the world, if you do, you may end up convincing yourself that compared to what is going on out there, I’m doing pretty ok, I’m a decent person, you know at least I haven’t done that….

However, as christians we can’t base our life on the standards of this world, our standards are kingdom standards, the bible is very clear on what is right and what is wrong,

In today’s scriptures we’re told specifically to get rid of:

  • ANGER
  • WRATH
  • MALICE
  • SLANDER
  • OBSCENE TALK
  • LIES

As followers of christ we have to get rid of our old selves and put on a new self, one that is being renewed in knowledge, the ultimate goal is to be more like the image of our creator. As christians we are all one and we’re all connected together in unity by his LOVE.

As new people we’re supposed to exude the following characteristics:

  • COMPASSIONATE HEARTS
  • KINDNESS
  • HUMILITY
  • MEEKNESS
  • PATIENCE
  • FORGIVENESS

Above everything that we’re called to be, the most important is LOVE!!! Love brings everything together in perfect HARMONY and where there is LOVE there is PEACE. Let our lives and hearts be ruled by PEACE. Not forgetting to be thankful and remain content about everything and in every season of our lives.

Love Always,

XOXO

Dee