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How I found Love Again…(Day 29 – FINAL) What Is Love? Challenge

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So we’ve come to the end of the “What Is Love?” Challenge, Day 29…it’s been a beautiful and wonderful journey, digging deeper into what God says about Love.

I’m going to be a bit transparent today, before starting this challenge I was going though a pretty rough time. I was at the darkest and lowest I had ever been… going through a lot of challenges and deep issues…and I was questioning a lot of what I knew concerning Life and Love…

I had taken a break from my blog, YT channel and Social Media in general and I didn’t think I would ever come back…

A few months before starting this challenge, I had given my life to Jesus… and as I prayed and cried to God for answers…I felt the urge to start this challenge and share it with all of you…

I started this challenge on October 2016 and I’m finally completing it a year later…a lot of things have changed since then…my faith in God has been strengthened…I have seen and tasted the LOVE of God personally, and I know he is REAL, he EXISTS and most importantly, I have personally experienced the POWER and touch of his LOVE in my life…I now know that nothing in this world can separate me from his LOVE and I know that no matter what I go through in this life, he is always there with me…I have found my one true LOVE

1 Corinthians 13:8-13(ESV)

Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away. 11 When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways. 12 For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.

13 So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.

Today, I just wanted to encourage you by sharing a part of my story and my testimony…

I know most of you may have found me through my videos and blog posts concerning the MHM…and I still receive a lot of questions and inquiries specifically asking if I’m still doing the regimen and for me to give updates e.t.c

Well back in 2015, I started experiencing problems in my marriage. I’d been with this man for 14 years and we had been married for 3 years, our sons were 3 and 6 at the time.

It was during the time MHM was really popular and I just couldn’t handle the demands of keeping up with the content, let alone doing my own hair in the midst of all the problems I was facing…well towards the end of the year, we came to the conclusion that our marriage wasn’t going to work out.

And like most women, when we go through life altering circumstances we cut our hair…so that’s what I did, I big chopped and decided to change my whole look completely…I let my hair and the old me go…I wanted a fresh new start…

When something like that happens, it does take a lot out of you…even though I had known months in advance that the marriage was going to end…and actually, things had been bad for a while and we were just hanging on by the thread…but actually going through the transition was really tough…

I had so many things I had to worry about….I was overwhelmed, heartbroken and I felt like I had lost everything, because all my dreams and hopes were shattered…

Hopes and dreams for myself and most of all the hopes and dreams for my children…

As children, we all dream about eventually having a family but no one ever dreams that their family will be torn apart or broken, no one dreams about becoming a single mother…these things are not really part of our plans until they become our reality…

If you or someone you know are going through a separation or divorce, just know it is a traumatic experience that needs healing…not many people acknowledge this and you’re sometimes just expected to pick up the pieces of your life and move on…but that’s not the reality…I recommend that you watch this video by Dr Miles Munroe on How to Live after Separation and Divorce…a must watch for anyone single, married, separated or divorced.

Other challenges I faced, was the fact that one of my son’s had just been diagnosed with Autism and ADHD. And as some of you know, I live in Sweden…so I was essentially in a foreign country, alone, facing all these challenges and just trying to get through each day, healing my own emotional wounds, while raising my kids and trying to find better opportunities for us….

I had hit rock bottom and lost EVERYTHING and I had to start rebuilding my life from scratch, zero, nada…

I went through a lot of emotional, mental and financial challenges….I even fell into depression because I didn’t see how I could overcome all the challenges I was facing…But GOD!!!

Through it all God had been pursuing me, I remember when I and my EX were going through the break up he asked me…”So what are you going to do now?”…and I said, “I’m going to find God”…I didn’t even know what that meant at the time…but I certainly found him…

During the summer of 2016, I surrendered my life to God and said, Lord, I can’t do this on my own, so I want you take control…

Well, God took control alright, but he didn’t wave his magic wand and make everything PERFECT again, but he started healing me slowly…renewing my mind and showing me his LOVE…

I still had a lot of challenges, but I had his LOVE, JOY, PEACE surpassing all understanding and the strength to face all the challenges I was facing…

I came to understand that I had put my faith, hope, trust, love and fear in a man who was flawed and human, instead of relinquishing control in God…God was never a foundation of our marriage and it wasn’t pleasing or glorifying to him…

Well today, I thank God because he is a God of second chances…I survived one of the biggest blows in my life, my children are happy and healthy. My son who was diagnosed with Autism is doing pretty good compared to how he was a few years back…which is a miracle in itself…and I see God continuing to work on him each day…

Sometimes God’s solutions take time, he doesn’t give us quick fixes to our problems or grant us the requests for our prayers immediately….

but he wants you to go through a process in the wilderness, desert, valley…where you will learn to lean and trust him completely…and by the time God is done with you, you become a force to be reckoned with…because you will know God personally, you will have such an intimate relationship with him and your faith will not waver…

I don’t have everything I want, but I have God and he is enough for me. I know he knows exactly what I and my children need and he gives abundantly according to his will…

God is opening new doors and opportunities for me even as I speak/write this, surpassing what I could even imagine or could of asked him for…

He has worked miracles and I have found favor in places I never could on my own…there’s no other explanation but God…

when you see my posts online and see how passionate I am for God, it’s not because I’m righteous, or perfect or got it all together…

but it’s because my God rescued me, forgave me, healed me, provided for me, loved me and my children, he was there…when nobody else was…

Thank God we do not look like what we went through…because Lord knows I’ve been through it…and when people hear bits and pieces of my story they always say, “you’re sooo strong!!!”

well I just want to say, I’m just a regular person, there’s nothing special about me, I’m not any stronger or better than anyone else….but I know a big God, who created this universe and that’s where my strength and joy comes from…and I thank him every single day for what he has done in my life and my children’s lives…and what he is yet to do…

I know this was a long post, but I just wanted to share, so that my pain, my experiences, may not be in vain, but that they may encourage someone else…

Whatever you may be going through today, just know God loves you so much, you have no idea!!! and he wants you back…there’s nothing too hard for him…give your life to him and you’ll never regret it…EVER!!!

…and this is the story of how, I found LOVE again…

Love always,

XOXO,

Dee

 



You are worth more broken…

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This past sunday, our Pastor talked about the Kintsugi art from the Japanese culture…the concept where they take broken objects and fix them using gold…hence transforming them into a piece of valuable art. The ironic thing is, this week two friends of mine brought to my attention a video sharing the same message…Coincidence? I think not…

“In Japanbroken objects are often repaired with gold. The flaw is seen as a unique piece of the object’s history, which adds to its beauty. Consider this when you feel broken.” – Anonymous

His message was that we shouldn’t hide our flaws, imperfections or whatever we’ve gone through in life that’s broken us, but embrace these broken pieces as a badge of honor….

We should let the light of Jesus shine through the cracks of our brokenness, strengthening us, healing us and turning us into a beautiful piece of art.

Meaning, we become more valuable through our brokenness, because when Jesus mends us, he turns us into something even more precious than we once were…How beautiful is that?

“God often uses our deepest pain as the launching pad for our greatest calling.”

- Anonymous

Whenever you go through something traumatic in life, you have a choice, to either stay broken and become a victim..

OR to rise through your circumstances, learn through your mistakes and use what you went through as a launching pad to something bigger and better…

“Let your past be your springboard,

not your quick-sand”

- Steve Maraboli

God never wastes any pain, within our pain we find purpose, within our pain we gain wisdom and experience and within our pain we are empowered to become a catalyst of change and help to others…

Only God can turn a mess into a message,

a test into a testimony,

a trial into a triumph,

a victim into a victory!

- Anonymous

Isaiah 61:1-3 (NLT)

61 The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is upon me,
    for the Lord has anointed me
    to bring good news to the poor.
He has sent me to comfort the brokenhearted
    and to proclaim that captives will be released
    and prisoners will be freed.
He has sent me to tell those who mourn
    that the time of the Lord’s favor has come,
    and with it, the day of God’s anger against their enemies.
To all who mourn in Israel,
    he will give a crown of beauty for ashes,
a joyous blessing instead of mourning,
    festive praise instead of despair.
In their righteousness, they will be like great oaks
    that the Lord has planted for his own glory.

Love Always,

XOXO,

Dee