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How I found Love Again…(Day 29 – FINAL) What Is Love? Challenge

1 corinthians 13

So we’ve come to the end of the “What Is Love?” Challenge, Day 29…it’s been a beautiful and wonderful journey, digging deeper into what God says about Love.

I’m going to be a bit transparent today, before starting this challenge I was going though a pretty rough time. I was at the darkest and lowest I had ever been… going through a lot of challenges and deep issues…and I was questioning a lot of what I knew concerning Life and Love…

I had taken a break from my blog, YT channel and Social Media in general and I didn’t think I would ever come back…

A few months before starting this challenge, I had given my life to Jesus… and as I prayed and cried to God for answers…I felt the urge to start this challenge and share it with all of you…

I started this challenge on October 2016 and I’m finally completing it a year later…a lot of things have changed since then…my faith in God has been strengthened…I have seen and tasted the LOVE of God personally, and I know he is REAL, he EXISTS and most importantly, I have personally experienced the POWER and touch of his LOVE in my life…I now know that nothing in this world can separate me from his LOVE and I know that no matter what I go through in this life, he is always there with me…I have found my one true LOVE

1 Corinthians 13:8-13(ESV)

Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away. 11 When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways. 12 For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.

13 So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.

Today, I just wanted to encourage you by sharing a part of my story and my testimony…

I know most of you may have found me through my videos and blog posts concerning the MHM…and I still receive a lot of questions and inquiries specifically asking if I’m still doing the regimen and for me to give updates e.t.c

Well back in 2015, I started experiencing problems in my marriage. I’d been with this man for 14 years and we had been married for 3 years, our sons were 3 and 6 at the time.

It was during the time MHM was really popular and I just couldn’t handle the demands of keeping up with the content, let alone doing my own hair in the midst of all the problems I was facing…well towards the end of the year, we came to the conclusion that our marriage wasn’t going to work out.

And like most women, when we go through life altering circumstances we cut our hair…so that’s what I did, I big chopped and decided to change my whole look completely…I let my hair and the old me go…I wanted a fresh new start…

When something like that happens, it does take a lot out of you…even though I had known months in advance that the marriage was going to end…and actually, things had been bad for a while and we were just hanging on by the thread…but actually going through the transition was really tough…

I had so many things I had to worry about….I was overwhelmed, heartbroken and I felt like I had lost everything, because all my dreams and hopes were shattered…

Hopes and dreams for myself and most of all the hopes and dreams for my children…

As children, we all dream about eventually having a family but no one ever dreams that their family will be torn apart or broken, no one dreams about becoming a single mother…these things are not really part of our plans until they become our reality…

If you or someone you know are going through a separation or divorce, just know it is a traumatic experience that needs healing…not many people acknowledge this and you’re sometimes just expected to pick up the pieces of your life and move on…but that’s not the reality…I recommend that you watch this video by Dr Miles Munroe on How to Live after Separation and Divorce…a must watch for anyone single, married, separated or divorced.

Other challenges I faced, was the fact that one of my son’s had just been diagnosed with Autism and ADHD. And as some of you know, I live in Sweden…so I was essentially in a foreign country, alone, facing all these challenges and just trying to get through each day, healing my own emotional wounds, while raising my kids and trying to find better opportunities for us….

I had hit rock bottom and lost EVERYTHING and I had to start rebuilding my life from scratch, zero, nada…

I went through a lot of emotional, mental and financial challenges….I even fell into depression because I didn’t see how I could overcome all the challenges I was facing…But GOD!!!

Through it all God had been pursuing me, I remember when I and my EX were going through the break up he asked me…”So what are you going to do now?”…and I said, “I’m going to find God”…I didn’t even know what that meant at the time…but I certainly found him…

During the summer of 2016, I surrendered my life to God and said, Lord, I can’t do this on my own, so I want you take control…

Well, God took control alright, but he didn’t wave his magic wand and make everything PERFECT again, but he started healing me slowly…renewing my mind and showing me his LOVE…

I still had a lot of challenges, but I had his LOVE, JOY, PEACE surpassing all understanding and the strength to face all the challenges I was facing…

I came to understand that I had put my faith, hope, trust, love and fear in a man who was flawed and human, instead of relinquishing control in God…God was never a foundation of our marriage and it wasn’t pleasing or glorifying to him…

Well today, I thank God because he is a God of second chances…I survived one of the biggest blows in my life, my children are happy and healthy. My son who was diagnosed with Autism is doing pretty good compared to how he was a few years back…which is a miracle in itself…and I see God continuing to work on him each day…

Sometimes God’s solutions take time, he doesn’t give us quick fixes to our problems or grant us the requests for our prayers immediately….

but he wants you to go through a process in the wilderness, desert, valley…where you will learn to lean and trust him completely…and by the time God is done with you, you become a force to be reckoned with…because you will know God personally, you will have such an intimate relationship with him and your faith will not waver…

I don’t have everything I want, but I have God and he is enough for me. I know he knows exactly what I and my children need and he gives abundantly according to his will…

God is opening new doors and opportunities for me even as I speak/write this, surpassing what I could even imagine or could of asked him for…

He has worked miracles and I have found favor in places I never could on my own…there’s no other explanation but God…

when you see my posts online and see how passionate I am for God, it’s not because I’m righteous, or perfect or got it all together…

but it’s because my God rescued me, forgave me, healed me, provided for me, loved me and my children, he was there…when nobody else was…

Thank God we do not look like what we went through…because Lord knows I’ve been through it…and when people hear bits and pieces of my story they always say, “you’re sooo strong!!!”

well I just want to say, I’m just a regular person, there’s nothing special about me, I’m not any stronger or better than anyone else….but I know a big God, who created this universe and that’s where my strength and joy comes from…and I thank him every single day for what he has done in my life and my children’s lives…and what he is yet to do…

I know this was a long post, but I just wanted to share, so that my pain, my experiences, may not be in vain, but that they may encourage someone else…

Whatever you may be going through today, just know God loves you so much, you have no idea!!! and he wants you back…there’s nothing too hard for him…give your life to him and you’ll never regret it…EVER!!!

…and this is the story of how, I found LOVE again…

Love always,




You are worth more broken…













This past sunday, our Pastor talked about the Kintsugi art from the Japanese culture…the concept where they take broken objects and fix them using gold…hence transforming them into a piece of valuable art. The ironic thing is, this week two friends of mine brought to my attention a video sharing the same message…Coincidence? I think not…

“In Japanbroken objects are often repaired with gold. The flaw is seen as a unique piece of the object’s history, which adds to its beauty. Consider this when you feel broken.” – Anonymous

His message was that we shouldn’t hide our flaws, imperfections or whatever we’ve gone through in life that’s broken us, but embrace these broken pieces as a badge of honor….

We should let the light of Jesus shine through the cracks of our brokenness, strengthening us, healing us and turning us into a beautiful piece of art.

Meaning, we become more valuable through our brokenness, because when Jesus mends us, he turns us into something even more precious than we once were…How beautiful is that?

“God often uses our deepest pain as the launching pad for our greatest calling.”

- Anonymous

Whenever you go through something traumatic in life, you have a choice, to either stay broken and become a victim..

OR to rise through your circumstances, learn through your mistakes and use what you went through as a launching pad to something bigger and better…

“Let your past be your springboard,

not your quick-sand”

- Steve Maraboli

God never wastes any pain, within our pain we find purpose, within our pain we gain wisdom and experience and within our pain we are empowered to become a catalyst of change and help to others…

Only God can turn a mess into a message,

a test into a testimony,

a trial into a triumph,

a victim into a victory!

- Anonymous

Isaiah 61:1-3 (NLT)

61 The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is upon me,
    for the Lord has anointed me
    to bring good news to the poor.
He has sent me to comfort the brokenhearted
    and to proclaim that captives will be released
    and prisoners will be freed.
He has sent me to tell those who mourn
    that the time of the Lord’s favor has come,
    and with it, the day of God’s anger against their enemies.
To all who mourn in Israel,
    he will give a crown of beauty for ashes,
a joyous blessing instead of mourning,
    festive praise instead of despair.
In their righteousness, they will be like great oaks
    that the Lord has planted for his own glory.

Love Always,



There is a COST for LOVE…(Day 26) What Is Love? Challenge

you are not of this worldImage Source : Love Changes Everything

When we become christians and decide to live a life of submission and LOVE to God there is always a price to pay. We must always decide between choosing a life that is temporarily “fulfilling” or to look at the bigger picture and decide to have an ETERNAL mindset….

In today’s scriptures (Day 26 Of the What Is Love? Challenge) Jesus says, that once we follow him we should expect to be hated by this world just as it hated him…

John 15:14-21  (ESV)

14 You are my friends if you do what I command you. 15 No longer do I call you servants,  for the servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all that I have heard from my Father I have made known to you. 16 You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit and that your fruit should abide, so that whatever you ask the Father in my name, he may give it to you. 17 These things I command you, so that you will love one another.

18 “If the world hates you, know that it has hated me before it hated you. 19 If you were of the world, the world would love you as its own; but because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you. 20 Remember the word that I said to you: ‘A servant is not greater than his master.’ If they persecuted me, they will also persecute you. If they kept my word, they will also keep yours. 21 But all these things they will do to you on account of my name, because they do not know him who sent me.

There are four main ideas in today’s scriptures, the first one being our relationship with God. Jesus says, we are no longer servants of God/Jesus but friends. This is because there is now transparency in our relationship, servants usually receive orders from their masters and just accept is as it is, without really understanding why. But Jesus became the living word, he restored our relationship with God and gave us wisdom and understanding concerning God’s plan.

Secondly, Jesus specifically chose and appointed us to bear fruit…bearing fruit means we are to conceive that which is filled within us due to his wisdom and love. When we bear fruit, we receive power and authority from God. Because of this whatever we ask in Jesus’ name, as long as it is within God’s WILL, it will be granted to us.

Third, we’re reminded once again TO LOVE EACH OTHER, this is the greatest command. Ultimately it all comes down to this…if we don’t get anything else Jesus has taught us or understand anything about God’s plan, we shall always default to LOVE, that’s what it’s all about.

Last, naturally the world will hate what we stand for, if they hated Jesus to the point of crucifying him, and he was perfect in every single way…then what of us mere humans who are flawed and just trying to follow his footsteps? we can’t chose to follow Jesus and expect the world to love us, because we stand for different things…the world does not know God or respect his word so it won’t understand what we’re about, love us or respect what we stand for. We must always remember we are NOT of this WORLD, we are of GOD, living in this world, which is temporary and fickle, all will pass but he remains the same – TODAY, TOMORROW and FOREVER more…choose your side wisely.

Love always,



Love Is Sacrificial…(Day 25) What Is Love? Challenge

love is sacrificial

When most of us think about LOVE, we often think about it in the context of romantic relationships…we think of the emotions that come with “falling in love” with someone. But in today’s scriptures (Day 25 – What Is Love? Challenge),  we learn that God’s definition of Love is SACRIFICE…it’s not a feeling that grows hot or cold based on how other people treat us… love doesn’t cease to exist because our emotions have grown cold…it’s a constant CHOICE we have to make.

John 15:9-13 (ESV)

As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Abide in my love. 10 If you keep my commandments, you will abide in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commandments and abide in his love. 11 These things I have spoken to you, that my joy may be in you, and that your joy may be full.

12 “This is my commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. 13 Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends.

Naturally, we have a hard time following God’s commandments because it goes against our fleshy sinful nature. But if we LOVE God and want to abide in his LOVE we have to make the conscious choice to keep his commandments, that’s the only way we can find true joy in this world.

Jesus says, we’re to show the same type of love to one another, we have to consciously make the choice to love one another even when we don’t feel like it…this is LOVE.

If you’re a parent or are married, then you know that a lot of times you have to do things that you don’t feel like doing…you have to wake up in the middle of the night to soothe a crying baby, or a sick child while, you had a stressful day, are sick yourself or while you’d rather catch up on sleep.

You have to wake up early in the morning before everyone else and make sure you get everything ready for your family, to start the day…all these actions are those of LOVE…sometimes your children will test your limits because of their defiant behaviour but you CHOSE to continue loving them anyway. Sometimes your spouse will disappoint you and hurt you but you have to chose to continue loving them anyway… LOVE is INTENTIONAL, we chose to love others inspite of their flaws.

When we chose to follow God’s commandments we’re building the muscle of SACRIFICE, OBEDIENCE, SUBMISSION and LOVE, if we can be OBEDIENT to God, if we can SUBMIT to God and LOVE him, then it becomes easier to do the same for others.

Jesus says, the greatest life is laying one’s life for his own friends…this is what Jesus did, he left his Holy throne of Majesty, to take upon a human body, to live like we do, to be tempted like we do, to experience shame, pain and suffering like we do…

Even though Jesus was God and loved humanity deeply and was willing to give up his own life as a sacrifice, he was also human and his human side was weak…he had to fast and pray intensely to overcome his flesh. He asked God if there was any other way he can save humanity without having to “drink from the cup” of suffering but ultimately he surrendered and submitted to God’s will. He chose to be obedient and sacrifice his own life for his “friends”.

Luke 22:42 (ESV)

42 saying, “Father, if you are willing, remove this cup from me. Nevertheless, not my will, but yours, be done.”

We may not have to go to this extent to show LOVE for others but we’re still called to “carry ” our cross each day, to cast aside our pride and ego, to overcome our carnal needs and desires, to “die” to ourselves each day, to “crucify” our sinful nature each day and to CHOSE to submit and obey God’s commandments, this is how we LOVE God and others.

Love always,